Christmas comes early this year. It comes in the usual form of femme fatale. Strangely when the song played this time around it didnt give that feel of emptiness and despair. Rather it made me look up into the skies, specifically towards the 2nd floor where someone was asking me to COME UP.
Perhaps this Christmas of 2008 will be a different Christmas. Perhaps it will be that divine Christmas which i was in a way promised but delivered buy another.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Love moves in mysterious ways
Who’d have thought this is how the pieces fit
You and I shouldn’t even try making sense of it
I forgot how we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons but I don’t know what they are
So blame it on my heart’ oh
Love moves in mysterious ways
It’s always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I’ll love you for the rest of my days
But still it’s a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Heaven knows love is just a chance we take
We make plans but then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close and never ever let me go’
Coz even though we think we know which way the river flows
That’s not the way love goes’ no’
Love moves in mysterious ways
It’s always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I’ll love you for the rest of my days
But still it’s a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Like the ticking of a clock two hearts beat as one
But I’ll never understand the way it’s done’ oh
Love moves in mysterious ways
It’s always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I’ll love you for the rest of my days
But still it’s a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Sunday, October 12, 2008
About dogs
The average dog is a nicer person than the average person - Andy Rooney
Affie the sausage dog which almost became Bangers N Mash thanks to Fang
There is no psychatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face - Ben Williams
Pucci the blue merle collie with hair as soft as Fang and colouration like my old bunny
Dogs love their friends and bite their enemies, quite unlike people - Sigmund Freud
Abang Adik
Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole - Roger Caras
and the reason why a dog has so many friends -
he wags his tail and not his tongue
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Sometimes
Sometimes when pple meet someone they think is too good; first thing that comes to mind is that it is too good to be true.
Sometimes the next thing is that they think they dont deserve someone that good; cause they themselves dont know what they can bring to the table.
Sometimes they dont realise that sometimes all that is needed is for them to be themselves for that was what was appreciated in the first place.
Sometimes people can't accept others for being themselves because they cant accept themselves for being themselves to begin with or they would rather be what they are now then change and evolve.
Sometimes the change and evolution is what they detest because they never imagined that others could affect them so; to make them lose themselves and that part of losing control is what freaks them out, hence making them reject the object/person of change.
The ultra rejectors are the ones who push others away in the most untasteful, finger pointing, emotionally draining and assertive way.
Sometimes this totally sucks.
Monday, October 6, 2008
in your hands
I think, rather i'm sure that this next one is yet another one that is sent to show/tell/teach me something.
A perfect angel from what i can see from the outside. Everything that i kinda ever wanted and what i currently hope to have. Sad thing is that we come from different worlds.
Maybe the one common world we come from is God's kingdom. Nonetheless, in your hands, i place this new one. In your hands i place what this new one is meant to be and i anticipate with much anticipation what this new one is meant to be - to and for me.
Never thought that i could begin to feel this way again, yet i do.
A perfect angel from what i can see from the outside. Everything that i kinda ever wanted and what i currently hope to have. Sad thing is that we come from different worlds.
Maybe the one common world we come from is God's kingdom. Nonetheless, in your hands, i place this new one. In your hands i place what this new one is meant to be and i anticipate with much anticipation what this new one is meant to be - to and for me.
Never thought that i could begin to feel this way again, yet i do.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
my ways are not your ways
What if one day the person asking for help turns around to accuse you of being selfish?
Unprecedented logic of black and white is that if you don't render help you dont render help.
Selfishness as a trait only exists because it is a label to denote the unwillingness to render help to another for self centered reasons.
Here's the share of grey. What if the person asking is asking based on a self centered premise? Does that right the wrong? Of if the shade of grey comes in the form of an accusation from an individual who would rather sit back, fling with some bargirl he just met and forget his faithful girl back home which leads to him literally F*&^ing up his relationship, allowing it to affect school and work; leaving his groupmates to complete the tasks.
That isn't self centered, that's just escaping from responsibility and demanding that others understand his plight and take pity upon him. Self centeredness is when this individual claims the mark and grade and walks off without thanking others for helping - for he was never concerned about others, he was only concerned about himself.
Unprecedented logic of black and white is that if you don't render help you dont render help.
Selfishness as a trait only exists because it is a label to denote the unwillingness to render help to another for self centered reasons.
Here's the share of grey. What if the person asking is asking based on a self centered premise? Does that right the wrong? Of if the shade of grey comes in the form of an accusation from an individual who would rather sit back, fling with some bargirl he just met and forget his faithful girl back home which leads to him literally F*&^ing up his relationship, allowing it to affect school and work; leaving his groupmates to complete the tasks.
That isn't self centered, that's just escaping from responsibility and demanding that others understand his plight and take pity upon him. Self centeredness is when this individual claims the mark and grade and walks off without thanking others for helping - for he was never concerned about others, he was only concerned about himself.
So today, put in a similar situation, on a need to know basis i was so freaking pissed. Bring taken for granted is the shittiest of things.
My ways are not your ways. That sentence spoke to me. Couple thousand years ago there once walked a man who came sharing lots of words and actions. All these sharings were scorned upon and frowned upon but he continued delivering. Never asking for recognition, credit or appreciation. Yet he persisted in being him. Why?
So quietening down does help at least i see myself being able to be at peace 'helping' someone else and that's the thing, moving forward i dont feel unhappy having had some arrows shot back at me. Thats what makes me different. Of course initially i was unhappy it's just that later on as i settled down and looked at it from a peaceful angle i find peace.
It doesnt matter if people continue to be like that, thats their problem because one day they'll realise and thats enough for them and me. That they didnt once asked, they expected. They didn't request, they demanded. They didn't thank, they scorned and shot arrows.
They obviously have their rewards set out for them. I already have mine. Among other reasons that what i did, was more for myself in ways which i'd rather just keep to myself.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Obstacles to the crossroad
Obstacles...Obstacles...
Often a times, we hear of people being blocked and obstructed when the have the intention to do something good.
Whenever a thought of good is to be translated into a deed of goodwill, somehow, someway, something appears and hinders that transition. Else, when we're in the preliminary stage of executing, the same hindering process takes place. It could be in the form of people, events, items, time or just plain circumstance.
This week takes the cake. Obstacles a plenty hindering the bad from taking place. Each time the thought of reverting or the planning of executing, that transparent wedge comes and prevents anything from taking place.
In the form of people, items, words, a sense of this cloud of encapsulating invisible bubble that just goes NO it's not going to happen. Remain what you are, there is no crossroad.
Often a times, we hear of people being blocked and obstructed when the have the intention to do something good.
Whenever a thought of good is to be translated into a deed of goodwill, somehow, someway, something appears and hinders that transition. Else, when we're in the preliminary stage of executing, the same hindering process takes place. It could be in the form of people, events, items, time or just plain circumstance.
This week takes the cake. Obstacles a plenty hindering the bad from taking place. Each time the thought of reverting or the planning of executing, that transparent wedge comes and prevents anything from taking place.
In the form of people, items, words, a sense of this cloud of encapsulating invisible bubble that just goes NO it's not going to happen. Remain what you are, there is no crossroad.
Dog and Humans
If anyone asks me what i've learnt from bringing up a dog, i'd say the greatest lesson is this:
When a dog sees you and comes up to you a dog wags its tail and sticks out its tongue; but when humans come up to you, they wag their tongues and stick out their behind at you once they're done with you. At least dogs go away from you happy with their tails wagging.
It's so annoying when need to know basis people come to you so friendly and cordial and when they're done with the agenda they just leave like as though all they ever wanted was to put imprints of their residue.
Sly ones are also out there, delivering empty promises, making you walk away with hopes and visualisations that becomes virtualisation. Painting a picture of a promise which can be twisted later on and spun around. Distasteful as it already is, the other factor of procrastinating is what i call stalling. Stalling is just another way of saying hey i dont have the balls to say it to you hence i'll just keep you hanging.
Well, since this world is of this nature and the people around are like that (with christians included), call it payback or call it taking care of oneself, it's time to not be so nice anymore. It's time to return to ceasar what belongs to ceasar.
When a dog sees you and comes up to you a dog wags its tail and sticks out its tongue; but when humans come up to you, they wag their tongues and stick out their behind at you once they're done with you. At least dogs go away from you happy with their tails wagging.
It's so annoying when need to know basis people come to you so friendly and cordial and when they're done with the agenda they just leave like as though all they ever wanted was to put imprints of their residue.
Sly ones are also out there, delivering empty promises, making you walk away with hopes and visualisations that becomes virtualisation. Painting a picture of a promise which can be twisted later on and spun around. Distasteful as it already is, the other factor of procrastinating is what i call stalling. Stalling is just another way of saying hey i dont have the balls to say it to you hence i'll just keep you hanging.
Well, since this world is of this nature and the people around are like that (with christians included), call it payback or call it taking care of oneself, it's time to not be so nice anymore. It's time to return to ceasar what belongs to ceasar.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Letting go
The most difficult thing to do is to let go!
"Take hold lightly; let go lightly. This is one of the great secrets of felicity in love"
"Courage is the power to let go of the familiar"
Quotes like these can be found in abundance in books, on the world wide web and through the mouths of people we meet day to day.
No one has something substaintial to say about letting go of a lie. It is so easy to let go of the truth. It is blatantly and if the truth is tasteless then just chuck it aside. If it is tasteful then take it.
What if truth is all but a lie. A lie built on deception, manipulation, misleading words being exchanged, misperceptions based on unguided codes of sharing with a hidden agenda?
Sure, for the sender it's easy to know what's real and what's not. For the receiver, everything that was true became a whole cloudy grey. To let go of a lie is to let go of the truth. To let go of the truth is to first and foremost come to the understanding, realization and acceptance that everything wasn't real when in actual fact feelings, memories and physical items point out that yes something did take place.
My story of always wanting to carry too much. My spiritual quest, the painful process of learning to let go of things not essential.
"Take hold lightly; let go lightly. This is one of the great secrets of felicity in love"
"Courage is the power to let go of the familiar"
Quotes like these can be found in abundance in books, on the world wide web and through the mouths of people we meet day to day.
No one has something substaintial to say about letting go of a lie. It is so easy to let go of the truth. It is blatantly and if the truth is tasteless then just chuck it aside. If it is tasteful then take it.
What if truth is all but a lie. A lie built on deception, manipulation, misleading words being exchanged, misperceptions based on unguided codes of sharing with a hidden agenda?
Sure, for the sender it's easy to know what's real and what's not. For the receiver, everything that was true became a whole cloudy grey. To let go of a lie is to let go of the truth. To let go of the truth is to first and foremost come to the understanding, realization and acceptance that everything wasn't real when in actual fact feelings, memories and physical items point out that yes something did take place.
My story of always wanting to carry too much. My spiritual quest, the painful process of learning to let go of things not essential.
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