my ways are not your ways

What if one day the person asking for help turns around to accuse you of being selfish?
Unprecedented logic of black and white is that if you don't render help you dont render help.
Selfishness as a trait only exists because it is a label to denote the unwillingness to render help to another for self centered reasons.

Here's the share of grey. What if the person asking is asking based on a self centered premise? Does that right the wrong? Of if the shade of grey comes in the form of an accusation from an individual who would rather sit back, fling with some bargirl he just met and forget his faithful girl back home which leads to him literally F*&^ing up his relationship, allowing it to affect school and work; leaving his groupmates to complete the tasks.

That isn't self centered, that's just escaping from responsibility and demanding that others understand his plight and take pity upon him. Self centeredness is when this individual claims the mark and grade and walks off without thanking others for helping - for he was never concerned about others, he was only concerned about himself.

So today, put in a similar situation, on a need to know basis i was so freaking pissed. Bring taken for granted is the shittiest of things.

My ways are not your ways. That sentence spoke to me. Couple thousand years ago there once walked a man who came sharing lots of words and actions. All these sharings were scorned upon and frowned upon but he continued delivering. Never asking for recognition, credit or appreciation. Yet he persisted in being him. Why?

So quietening down does help at least i see myself being able to be at peace 'helping' someone else and that's the thing, moving forward i dont feel unhappy having had some arrows shot back at me. Thats what makes me different. Of course initially i was unhappy it's just that later on as i settled down and looked at it from a peaceful angle i find peace.

It doesnt matter if people continue to be like that, thats their problem because one day they'll realise and thats enough for them and me. That they didnt once asked, they expected. They didn't request, they demanded. They didn't thank, they scorned and shot arrows.

They obviously have their rewards set out for them. I already have mine. Among other reasons that what i did, was more for myself in ways which i'd rather just keep to myself.