Emptiness

A night of emptiness. Emptiness sets in when suddenly the distancing became stronger.
Emptiness that could have been filled up so easily with the possibility of going back to the old ways.

The thought of losing everything that was done seems to be the only thing holding me back. Is that the right reason for continuing? Why bother to be in prayer and hold onto faith in someone and God if all it means is to complete a number.

Born out of pentecost was the 9 week devotion of the novena. Regardless of the powers or the divine belief and intervention is 9 a nice digit?

This 9 makes me recall something:" I wish instead I were a 9; For 9 could thwart this evil trick,with just some quick arithmetic". So much for the root of three. Maybe I should have gone for someone who shared Harold and Kumar instead of someone i thought could share Harold and Kumar.

It might have saved me alot of heartache. Whether or not i could have learnt and experience in the same way is one thing. On the flip side, if i had learnt, it would have been in a different form. Maybe i wouldnt have learnt as much. Maybe i would have learnt more. Maybe i would have learnt in a good and pleasant way.

Maybe i wouldnt be left with this emptiness.