Changed

Fel it's been a long time since we've met up. The last time we met up, church and God was one of the talking points. What was my response to you then? Church and God is not for me. I don't hear him calling or see him calling but at the back of my head i know he's just there somewhere. Until the day he calls i'll just not bother.

Tonight, over dinner at clarke quay the me sitting at the table was like the total opposite of who i was the last we met. I'm wasn't really taken aback with the comment you made about the different side of me. Yet, at the same time it is quite remarkable that you managed to notice just by the way i spoke.

Strength i realised has a 3rd dimension. The strength drawn is not that of immense power or inertia. To have a control over the emotions is not something that easy but it is achievable. I'm not suggesting the simple road of being indifferent. That's totally not going to benefit situations, people or ourselves.

Strength to accept accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can that is within myself and/or others
and wisdom to know the difference.

Difference of whether it is mine to change or is it God's place to change.
Living one day at a time; Live today in prayer and tomorrow in providence.

Enjoying one moment at a time; but not to enjoy selfishly. To embrace when it is right and fully right. Not to steal and embrace in parts or in pieces. Not to be a scavenger.

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; peace that the world cannot give. To experience forgiveness that it is not only ours to forgive but also with divinity. To err is human, to forgive divine. Divine when the weirdest thing is that hurt can be taken away from you not literally but spiritually.

Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right that everything will be alright if I surrender to His Will. That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.