A long overdue mid year review is gonna take place.
As a review is going to be performed on my professional persona, it's time to pen down my own review.
I guess it's overdue as well. In fact alot of postings are going to be long overdue by the time they get captured here. Back to the story of footprints i pictured during my meditative time, it's in writing down firstly in my own head or perhaps on a piece of paper or a notebook followed by a follow-up reflection that i truly know what the experiences meant and represented.
Much has happened during the past year Aug 2007- Aug 2008.
Phase 1 was to undergo a preparation for what should be termed the physical side of me. Not in the literal bodily sense of the word but practically in terms of academia and profession.
Phase 2 was more of a stage of realisation of the emotional side of myself which apparantly had room for on-going growth. I'd hate to term it like as though it is an exponential growth for the word exponential would make it seem like as though i'm a person who thinks highly of himself.
Phase 3 was the greatest experience that a being which is agglomerated-ly named God is real.
It is in this Phase 3 where i realised the term exponential isn't something to just talk about, in fact it's something to be glad about. Why so? Simply, to me phase 3 is where we draw strength and it is from this spiritual strength that we are given the ability, the capability, the luxury to experience this feeling that there is always room and there will always be room because it is not by just our own efforts or power alone.
Coming from the triple whammy angle of: Health (physical), Relationship (Emotive), Despair (Spiritual weakness) i see how i was really put to the test, not by person or persons but by a higher power.
In the next posts, the tracking of this spiritual experience will probably give me yet another something to look back on in 2009.
As a review is going to be performed on my professional persona, it's time to pen down my own review.
I guess it's overdue as well. In fact alot of postings are going to be long overdue by the time they get captured here. Back to the story of footprints i pictured during my meditative time, it's in writing down firstly in my own head or perhaps on a piece of paper or a notebook followed by a follow-up reflection that i truly know what the experiences meant and represented.
Much has happened during the past year Aug 2007- Aug 2008.
Phase 1 was to undergo a preparation for what should be termed the physical side of me. Not in the literal bodily sense of the word but practically in terms of academia and profession.
Phase 2 was more of a stage of realisation of the emotional side of myself which apparantly had room for on-going growth. I'd hate to term it like as though it is an exponential growth for the word exponential would make it seem like as though i'm a person who thinks highly of himself.
Phase 3 was the greatest experience that a being which is agglomerated-ly named God is real.
It is in this Phase 3 where i realised the term exponential isn't something to just talk about, in fact it's something to be glad about. Why so? Simply, to me phase 3 is where we draw strength and it is from this spiritual strength that we are given the ability, the capability, the luxury to experience this feeling that there is always room and there will always be room because it is not by just our own efforts or power alone.
Coming from the triple whammy angle of: Health (physical), Relationship (Emotive), Despair (Spiritual weakness) i see how i was really put to the test, not by person or persons but by a higher power.
In the next posts, the tracking of this spiritual experience will probably give me yet another something to look back on in 2009.
So, in looking at the whole saga, i'd rather not dwell on the nitty gritty and look at the bigger lesson and bigger picture learnt.
No man is an island, no man stands alone. Who'd like to live like a hermit anyways? Come a stage we'll be looking for friends, come a time we'll be looking for a companion, come a time we'll reach a stage where we'll be happier if there was another half. This time i truly understood what it means to say "other half ".
It isn't as simple as saying we want to be a part of someone, in as much as we hope to receive a part of someone.
- Physically, two can be connected. Of course thats the easiest isn't it? When lips have joined we can put a tick on the checklist.
- Mentally, two minds can think alike or think about each other at the same time. How do we know this? Simply ask ourselves how many times we've tried sms-ing someone or how many times we're about to click the 'send' button just to feel the phone vibrate or chime to alert us that we've received an sms - better yet it's the same person you were about to send the sms to. Another scenario would be to try calling someone, only to find that the line is engaged. Upon trying a 2nd or 3rd time, after getting through, the person says "I was trying to get you". Yet another scenario in our modern day and age of digitization and technological advancement. Sending an sms and on the IM you receive a text from the receipient of your sms
- Emotionally feeling something for another. Now thats the tough part huh? Worse still, in prayer, feel exactly what the other is feeling even you know nuts to nothing about what the person is sad about in terms of background knowledge. As i was saying earlier about lips joining, now i ask. Is this simple scenario above descriptive enough about hearts joining? If it isn't then perhaps getting a call with the opening words "i thought of calling you cause i kinda felt you were feeling in a mood that you deserve a call". only to give the reply that i'm really in bad shape now cause of a voice i heard which is neither mine nor anyone else's as i was alone, how did you know i wasnt feeling too good?
Good thing comes in 3's. Ready-Get set-Go (I'm in the olympic mood)...Father-Son-Holy Ghost... Know your A-B-C. Need i go on further why we're conditioned to 3's?
Physical-Mental-Emotional these are the 3's of what most of the secular world would equate to soulmates.
Well i dont deny the equation, neither do i deny that it happens. I've heard of cases before, just that i never expected it to happen to me.
Neither did i expect something else to happen. When these three meet and form a triangle, the beauty in this is if it is sealed with a divine seal.
What i guess i'm driving at in my own reflection is that these 3 are connected, hence we label it as connection - for others chemistry. A question i put across to myself. Many want a strong connection. What's stopping me from aiming for a divine union then? That for two people who have this strong connection is able to make room for God and Christ to enter to allow a cup which is half full of love to be also half empty of a Godly love, the father's love.
Hey, i've always said that a half filled pint of beer is just waiting to be topped up :)
Taking my last experience as an example, the physical, mental, emotional connection can only be made more complete if these are held together in a divine union.
So in summary, if we say that 2 is able to have a strong relationship with a strong connection in their own little world, there's another world out there where a divine seal is able to make complete in wholesome goodness a blessed union.
And thats where the northen star is pointed towards. It never was about the other half alone. It's about ourselves and God. It begins with that and it should continue with two on a united journey to God together.
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